I really feel like I’m not much help anymore to my youth. Gah!
God, just fill me up! Show me your direction and path; lead me to Your wisdom and to Your truth.
That inner battle between your mind and your emotions; it’s hard isn’t it. Just a few hours ago while driving around town I let my emotions get the better of me letting the hurt, pain and sadness from losing my only father. The grief was too much… Screaming at the top of my lungs, and crying. Not knowing what else to do; go on with my life? It’s not easy. Sometimes I just can’t….. Move on.
I…… Don’t know where to begin. My whole life has been shaken, tossed and has been turned around to a complete 360. My heart is in so much pain; I’ve been through so much these past two years sharing a powerful testimony of lost, love, trusting in God, complaint, heart ache, fear and seclusion along side my Ohana. At the end sadly enough cancer has taken its toll; my father is now united with The Creator. Nothing can explain how much I miss him, his voice yelling at me, the words of encouragement, and of course the constant singing. Man, who would’ve thought right? That he’s gone. He fought cancer like a boss….. At the end of the day God is still in control He’s all powerful and all knowing.
Romans 8:28 says “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose”.
-Never forget that all things work according to His purpose and plan no matter what. At the moment I’m trying to put the broken pieces back where they belong in my heart but sometimes the pieces don’t fit.
Pictures courtesy of : http://www.buzzfeed.com/daves4/things-that-look-just-like-childhood
1. THE HARDEST GAME YOU WILL EVER PLAY.
2. THE ORIGINAL TEXT MESSAGE
3. THESE BAD BOYS
4. THIS WAITING…